So I was really thinking this day would never happen. I mean, I used to always KNOW this day would happen, then it didn't so I began thinking this day would really never happen. You know that day when your kids don't want you around anymore.
I was good when my oldest started school, then when she got older I expected that day to come. And it didn't! 3rd grade, 4th grade, 5th and 6th grade all passed with her running up to give me a big hug when I came in the room. Then she stated junior high and I thought it would come. Still didn't. Then she started high school and I thought it would never happen, but mostly to the end of the year, it finally happened.
It really started when we went on our Disneyland trip and has just gotten worse. Now she doesn't even want to spend her 16th birthday with her family. I am torn between saying, no, you will spend your birthday with the one that gave birth to you; and realizing that she won't have a good time, will be more moody and no fun to be with anyway, so what to do?
Ahhh. Sometimes being a mom is hard. I love it. Best job ever. But somedays my heart strings are really torn. This is one of those days...
On the happier side, houses are being built like crazy around us and I hope someday really soon it won't feel nearly so lonely here!
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