Starting all over, again

So since I really didn't keep up on the 365 days of gratitude very well, I have decided to use this blog a little differently.  I am solely going to use it as a journal, trying to find the positive in everyday, but some days it might take a lot of digging.  I was talking to a friend recently that reminded me of the importance of journal keeping.  I keep up on my family blog, sort of ish, but I don't always write down the things of my days that I would like to remember  because I forget by the time I am caught up.  So my other blog will be my family history, and this one will be my journal. I may turn it private, because sometime I may not want to have the world know my feelings yet, but we will see...

So lately I have been struggling a bit with finding joy.  There have been some family issues that have caused me heartache.  In my extended family there is so much tension sometimes.  Elder Huntsman spoke to our stake last weekend and admonished us to let things go.  We need to forgive and not hold onto things that happened 1, 5, 10 or more years ago.  He told us we can move forward and that that is why we have the Atonement.  I am often reminded of the scripture that tells us that if we forgive, God will forgive us, but if we don't forgive, He won't forgive us.   I need that forgiveness!

Also sometimes I get bogged down with poor decisions my children a making.  One of them is making particularly poor choices lately.  Sister Dalton taught that every choice matters to the Young Women at Conference.  That is also why I get weighed down.  I feel the importance and see the path that they might go down.  Yet at the same time President Uchtdorf taught of the importance on our journey in this life, to be of good cheer.

So I guess my goal this year is to be of good cheer.  Even when all those other things happen.  Be of good cheer.  Lets see how I do!