Day 7

Today was a really cruddy day so you would think it would be harder to find something to be grateful for, but actually today was almost the easiest. Today I am grateful for Alli. You see today was my break down day. I mean total break down. I have been struggling for over a month and today I really lost it. At one point I was just huddled in the corner of my room crying when Scotty came in, gave me a hug and told me he loved me. Then Alli followed. She didn't leave though. She sat and held me for a long time. Then she grabbed her special blanket and wrapped it around me and held me. Then she brought me a pillow to lean up against. Then it was her favorite stuffed animals she brought me with more hugs. Then you know what she said? She said she wished everyone in our family treated each other that way when they were sad. Then I thought about when I was a little kid, all I really wanted when I was hurting was a hug and a reassurance that everything was going to be ok. Isn't that what I still want and what I got from a 6 year old today? Maybe that is how I should treat my other children too - especially Alli whom I already know wants to be treated that way too. Thank you my Alli for the big hug and the love you showed me today. I love you tootsie!